known as the chicken...

Thank God for this week...
Thank God for keeping me safe...
Thank God for giving me strength in spite of my sickness...

Fell sick this week during my Situational Test early this week... Slight fever with blocked nose t times... i didnt want to fall out... I just couldnt... I didnt want to come back to the forested reclaimed land to do a re-sit test in a field camp setting... hahaha...

And using my 3 P's Approach, nothing could go wrong. and they are:

Prayer
Perseverence
Paracetamol

haha... just took some panadols from the medic, kept me alive for some moments at least... hopefully i did ok in my Sit test. my posting after my Passing out parade is determined by this test...

And the question remains... will I be going to a command school?

And now lies the next most important question...

What phone model whould i get next?

Love the sleek designs by Samsung... their sliding mechanism on their sliding phones are one of the best in my opinion... so smooth and swift... ahh... simply chio...

Currently aiming for the SGH-D820 model... either that or i could fork out a lil more dough and get the new Samsung UltraEdition 12.9 ...

Hmmmmm... Decisions decisions...

Decisions and more decisions...

I have a few hours left to decide if i wanna follow my mum to Perth after my passing out parade. I would sure deserve the holiday considering that i spent my past 2 months plus in tekong and receiving all sorts of Tekan and training... but i would also want to rest at home and be a civilian again for that short 10 days of block leave that i have. I wanna to go out with my frens too... wanna go for my church's Salvation Sunday on 9th September, wanna watch its Drama on that day too! wanna rest and relax at my own Bed at my own home... wanna go out and have proper meals with my close frens and loved ones... (Did i mention before that Food at tekong sucks? ok... i think i did before...)

I wanna do so many things!! I wanna play Dota with my classmates! I wanna go Ubin with them and cycle too! I wanna go shop for ingredients and cook a meal... I wanna go shopping! I wanna have uninterrupted sleep for 12 hours! I wanna have a proper Sunday WITHOUT any book ins! hahaha...

I also want a new phone!!

Well... at least i managed to shop for a new shirt today... thks to my special friend... :)

Time for my Individual Body Maintainence (a.k.a. Sleep) ... Blessed night my frens... have a blessed week ahead!


"My 335th day of Loving you...
As each day pass...
The count will go on...

This is my Prayer...
That the Lord will protect and keep you...
And bless you at each new dawn..."


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In BMT, and even for the remaining time in NS, we will be sacrificing alot. Our time, freedom, friendships... in short, our life.

So yea... things will change... people around us will change... our environment around us will change... in short, after the 2 years, it could probably be as though we are reborned again into this world as a different person. And from there we start to socialise and meet new people once again. And from there we will have this thing called "freedom" once again.

hahaha...

so typical of us to whine bout NS life... wad to do...

2 more weeks to our passing out parade! whoo!! cant wait... but then... wad's ahead of me, i do not know. that's the thing which is freaking me out abit...

Am i ready to move on to the next phase? am i mentally prepared? so wad if im physically ready? the mind can kill... all the pressure from everyone around... frens around who put so much hope on me to excel... to get silver or a gold for ippt... to go to sispec or ocs... i dislike the pressure... but sometimes it is that same pressure that pushes oneself to go over beyond its limitations...

Im tired...

Physically very tired le... cant wait for the block leave to arrive :)

mentally stressed... perhaps im too fearful of wad it is to come after bmt? perhaps i'm not prepared? or perhaps that i'm fearful that i may fail eventually in my next phase of NS?

im just... this close of breaking down...

God, i really need your touch once again...

Situational test is tmr... booking in soon... prayfully i hope i can jump over this hurdle without any more scarrings...

Here goes another week... have a blessed week my frens =)

"All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
Reaches out to find the love he gave

Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation
Lives to testify

For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
The words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love"

Three and a half more weeks ot my Passing Out Parade. Less than a month to the end of my BMT. About a month plus more to my posting of my next unit...

The big question mark lies ahead still... the path that i would take is still unknown... at this point i have no idea where i would be going after bmt. sispec or ocs? storemen or RP? Driver or Sai Kang Warrior?

Command school? hmmm... rewards may be good at the end, but the journey is tough... really not sure if i'm up for it yet... my section mates are kinda raising their hopes too high on me le... haha... our Situational Test hasn't come yet, hopefully i can do well...

Guess i will just try my best in everything... shall just let God lead me ba... Sigh... I know He knows my plans, I know he knows my future... but sometimes i wonder why can't we take a short peek at those plans? hahaha... i don't really like to be kept in the dark for so long. i dun like secrets to kept that's concerning me... :(

Until now, i'm still kinda surprised that i survived my feild camp and BMT up to now. haha... i believe sometimes i would literally laugh at myself when i think about this. Can u imagine Eugene fighting for the country? lol... me holding a gun and CHARGGEEE towards the enemy at the battlefield? hhmmmmmmm... haha... all the enemy needs to do is to offer me comfy lodging and fresh food and i would spill everything i know about the SAF to my enemy.

lol... so much for loyalty to Country...

Hmmm... been spending quite abit lately... got my new wallet, some new cds, new mp3 player... now thinking of getting a PSP. hmmm... and possibly a new phone... hmmm... tempting...

need to save up for my future too... lol... wad future?

Might be going overseas after my POP... maybe either Genting to try out the new rides, or Perth... not confirm yet...

Perhaps you are wondering why am i not asleep at this unearthly hour of the day?

Sometimes i feel that sleeping is a watse of time... especially for us recruits... sleeping during our book out days are time wasting!! Our freedom is already compromised during the weekdays!! ok nvm that...

As i was on my way home just now from tampines, took bus 81 from tamp int back to my home busstop at pasir ris. I dunno... but somehow eversince i entered NS, life suddenly seemed so precious, and short. I began to miss so many things of the past... just as the bus 81 left tampines int, past flashbacks of my younger days came back. I could still remember the times when i was still in dramalight in LE tampines, and how i would have dinner with fabian and the guys at Long John Silvers, chatting on the fun moments in drama, enjoying the fellowship, and after that taking the same bus 81 back home to end my usual sunday.

I could also recall in my secondary school days, after speedlight service, sometimes me, douglas and daniel would delibrately take bus 27 from tamp int to Changi Airport, and changing to bus 53 and taking it back to our homes in pasir ris. Meanwhile we would be talking chatting all sorts of nonsense during the entire bus journey...

Just now as my bus went past Tampines Regional Library, i could still recall how me and my sec sch classmates would meet up and study at the 2nd floor of the library. And mindlessly doing countless maths exam papers and memorising our biology text... haha...

I shall qoute Yew Mun's Msn's nick:

"Moments in life resembles chemical processes, within just a millisecond, it'll become a memory in our heart..."

Sigh... and sometimes we wonder, why cant those enjoyable moments happen again?

I'm missing my younger days...

But wad can i do... wad can i change? I have to accept the fact that i'm no longer the young Eugene i used to be. I'll be 20 this year... and pretty soon i'll be 21... then i'll be 25, then one day i'll be 30...

Life is short... make full use out of it.

We are all different... so accept this fact that we are all different. Everyone has weaknesses. Everyone has their own strengths... If someone has Ability X, it DOESN'T mean that I could possess ability X too... Stop comparing... stop looking down on us...

Yes its hard... its Hard to live with people that are very different from us, its hard to adjust and compromise. Its hard, but possible! Stop insulting, instead let's encourage! lets live life with one anonerther, with minimal complains.

Life is Good...

I must learn to stop complaining... lol... dunno man, kinda disappointed and slightly pissed that my coy booked out so late and will be booking in so early tmr... sianness...

But then again, my platoon has been slacking as compared to others, so ya, i probably should shuddup... Life is Good... but it can be bedder... It was meant to be bedder than just a 'Good'.

God wanted to make life perfect for all of us... BUT she just had to ruin everything... grr...

About 2 weeks ago during field camp, one of the days while we were having our lil admin time in the morning before the next lesson, me and some of my mates were lying under rubber tree... lying comfortably on our helmets and SBO... the breeze was perfect, the shade was good... everything is so peaceful and beautiful... Lying there on the ground in that forest was nice... at that point, i felt i could sleep under that tree for the rest of the day!

Then me and shaun were pondering... in the beginning, Eve could be doing wad we were doing too! She could be lying under some tree in the Magnificent Garden of Eden, enjoying the peace, the cool breeze, the smell of scented fresh flowers, and the best of all, basking in God's presence. Not to mention with lil rabbits hopping around her, and with puppies sleeping and cuddling beside her.

Now that is wad i call Life.

But NNOOOOOOoooooooooooo... Instead of enjoying those simple great pleasure that could last for eternity, She just HAD to eat that blardy apple. argh...

Because of her, i cannot enjoy lying under a tree, i cannot have lil kittens and puppies running around me, i cannot breathe unpolluted air, i cannot have no stress, i cannot enjoy the life that we were supposed to have!!!

arghh!!! women!!

Instead of enjoying life, i am wearing green uniforms everyday doing stuff that i can nvr thought i would be doing...

But then again, BMT now is kinda fun at times... so ya... i should learn to stop

complaining... hmmmmm...

Festival of Praise was good... Don Moen and his songs are always ministering as always... it never fails to make my day constantly reminds me that God is always there, for us. :)

Our God is Able
He is Mighty
He is Faithful
And He never sleeps
He never slumbers
He never tires of hearing our Prayer
When we are weak
HE becomes stronger
So rest in His Love
and cast all of your cares on Him.

"Eugene stop thinking too much... stop having unnecessary aches once again... surrender

everything to the Lord!!"

"Its Hard lah!!"

In case if anyone noticed, i'm not around in this lil island known as Singapore for some time liao...

Current Status:
- Serving the nation
- in BMTC sch 1
- Falcon coy
- Platoon 4, section 1
- Being subjected to tremendous torment by th food served in their cookhouses
- Bored of the routine life
- Misses my civilian life
- Misses all the times spent with my friends and families...
- Amazed at how Dumb tekong Birds can be...
- Can't stand those keep oiling the handguard of their rifles. PLEASE spare a thought for the armsquad guys leh... spare a thought for our hands... lol...

Anyway, yea just booked out and now at home after 2 weeks!! Last week was confined due to my field camp. Praise God man... dunno how i survived haha... sleeping in the jungle, in rubber plantations and oil palm plantations, with all the centipedes and spiders and wad not.

And on the last day on my field camp last monday, i woke up in my trench with a worm on my head. arghhh... we humans are like Buffet for those insects... so many bites... But fret not, we are MAN!! Tahan we can!! Tahan we do!! lol...

Speaking of Man... seriously, NS is almost like a Gay paradise for those gays out there...

With all the butt touching and chest harassment everyday lol... Not to mention that everyone of us is bathing in front of each other everyday. woot...

Man... sitting at home in front of a computer in an air-conditioned room is sheer heaven... :) you know... maybe girls should enter NS too... it'll make them appreciate life bedder.

Some females just love to complain about life too much... you ppl should enjoy your civilain life out there, trust me, its way bedder than all the routine daily trainings and stuff.

Sure, we do get tanned and receive free training and getting fit and all, but still... we dun have much freedom...

i'm not really complaining... haha... i'm quite enjoying BMT life as of yet... :) i'm really blessed at my company and platoon... made many new friends and buddies, everyday is always an enjoyable yet tiring day, the training is just right, not as siong as other coy. Our sirs and sergeants are friendly and nice, unlike some other ones from other coy who always seem so demanding and strict. haha... wad to do... some ppl say Falcon is a Slack coy... maybe its just a coincidence... maybe we get nice superiors to take charge of us thats all.

haha... so much stories to share. All the experiences we received throughout my past 2 months has been very memorable... hope to catch up with my friends soon, will share more then... :)

God Bless!!

2 Timothy 1:7
"For God DID NOT give us a Spirit of Fear, BUT of Power, of Love, and of a Sound Mind."