known as the chicken...
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
As he looks into the sky...
In BMT, and even for the remaining time in NS, we will be sacrificing alot. Our time, freedom, friendships... in short, our life.
So yea... things will change... people around us will change... our environment around us will change... in short, after the 2 years, it could probably be as though we are reborned again into this world as a different person. And from there we start to socialise and meet new people once again. And from there we will have this thing called "freedom" once again.
hahaha...
so typical of us to whine bout NS life... wad to do...
2 more weeks to our passing out parade! whoo!! cant wait... but then... wad's ahead of me, i do not know. that's the thing which is freaking me out abit...
Am i ready to move on to the next phase? am i mentally prepared? so wad if im physically ready? the mind can kill... all the pressure from everyone around... frens around who put so much hope on me to excel... to get silver or a gold for ippt... to go to sispec or ocs... i dislike the pressure... but sometimes it is that same pressure that pushes oneself to go over beyond its limitations...
Im tired...
Physically very tired le... cant wait for the block leave to arrive :)
mentally stressed... perhaps im too fearful of wad it is to come after bmt? perhaps i'm not prepared? or perhaps that i'm fearful that i may fail eventually in my next phase of NS?
im just... this close of breaking down...
God, i really need your touch once again...
Situational test is tmr... booking in soon... prayfully i hope i can jump over this hurdle without any more scarrings...
Here goes another week... have a blessed week my frens =)
"All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
Reaches out to find the love he gave
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation
Lives to testify
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
The words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love"
So yea... things will change... people around us will change... our environment around us will change... in short, after the 2 years, it could probably be as though we are reborned again into this world as a different person. And from there we start to socialise and meet new people once again. And from there we will have this thing called "freedom" once again.
hahaha...
so typical of us to whine bout NS life... wad to do...
2 more weeks to our passing out parade! whoo!! cant wait... but then... wad's ahead of me, i do not know. that's the thing which is freaking me out abit...
Am i ready to move on to the next phase? am i mentally prepared? so wad if im physically ready? the mind can kill... all the pressure from everyone around... frens around who put so much hope on me to excel... to get silver or a gold for ippt... to go to sispec or ocs... i dislike the pressure... but sometimes it is that same pressure that pushes oneself to go over beyond its limitations...
Im tired...
Physically very tired le... cant wait for the block leave to arrive :)
mentally stressed... perhaps im too fearful of wad it is to come after bmt? perhaps i'm not prepared? or perhaps that i'm fearful that i may fail eventually in my next phase of NS?
im just... this close of breaking down...
God, i really need your touch once again...
Situational test is tmr... booking in soon... prayfully i hope i can jump over this hurdle without any more scarrings...
Here goes another week... have a blessed week my frens =)
"All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
Reaches out to find the love he gave
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation
Lives to testify
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
The words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love"