known as the chicken...

firstly i apologize to those who have heard my countless rantings regarding my SIP and FYP... please forgive me.

We humans are just one big bunch of weirdos... especially us students. Sometime back in our previous semester, as we were studying for our final examination, i believed most of us was dreading that period, and how we wished there was no exams no test blah blah yahda yahda... Sleepless nights at Changi Airport mugging for our paper the next day. Endless rantings abt lecturers and the dreadful subjects and all the endless information that we have to force ourselves to remember. But still, studying in the past was somewhat enjoyable too, especially when you have your friends around with you. They're the ones who motivate, who encourage each other to study and to work hard. The ones who you can crap with and just chat when its 4am and information on Pharmacology just wouldn't enter our small brains of ours.

And being a bunch of weidos, or a weirdo just like me, as i am now having my student attachment, am complaining that i'm missing studying and attending lectures. And to think i was just complaining abt studying some months back.

We are just never satisfied with our lives. Always finding a reason to whine and complain. haha... Currently i am having a ZERO dollar allowance for my attachment (courtesy of Temasek Poly and SINGHEALTH). And yes, at this point of time, i would be very glad if i could at least receive an allowance of a small sum of $100 for example. (since its better than a ZERO)

But come to think of it, even if TP or SINGHEALTH changed their mind and suddenly provide me with $100 monthly allowences, weirdo ppl like me may still not satisfied and may complain again!

"Wah Lao! $100 nia?? My other frens all getting $420 at least lor!!"

So moral of my story: Yes I'm moving on with the fact that i'm on attachment without an allowance (once again Courtesy of TP and Singhealth). Life still goes on. And i did move on. =) no use on ranting on unhappy moments and events. Instead of dwelling on unhappy events or moments, why not channel the energy to cherish and remember all the happy moments you had in your life? =)

I screwed something up today. screwed one of my supervisor's experiments. Was scolded as usual, and she made some remarks which was rather hurting. I know it was my fault, but its not 100% my fault. Sigh, but i guess whatever she says, ppl are likely to believe her as im just a noobish diploma student while she's a Dr. With all due respect, i don't like to rebut against my superiors even though sometimes theres a need to fight for wad i stand and believe. (but then again, some ppl might say: wth? since when eugene is right?! lol... who knows...)

Keeping all i felt deep in me was killing me. All the blame was pushed at me and i'm just helplessly there doing nothing about it. No one to turn to at that moment. Dunno why God seemed to distance himself at that point.

Thats why i always tell my friends, when you have any problems or troubles, Do share with someone you trust and care for you! Dun keep all the emotion inside you, dun keep all the bitterness and anger inside. Let it all out, you will feel bedder, trust me.

I wish i could too. But... i was alone in that lab.

tried to sms cheechew abt it too... but its not the same as compared to speaking it out to someone.

And i also tell my friends, after you share with someone, solve whatever that caused the bitterness and Move on. the key word, or rather, key words are: Move On. Dun just share your problems with ur frends and continue to live with this bitterness and hatred inside.

Solve the problem and move on...

Even when i was sharing wad i experienced today on the phone and to cheechew, the bitterness that still harboured in me still hurts. It made my mood foul... and personally i dun like being in a bad mood. It just sucks...

I thank my Lord... thank Him for evrything that he's done for me... only thru Him i can finally have peace within me... yay...

A saviour on a hill dying for my shame
Could this be true?
Defies the world I see
Yet this is all my heart was longing for
To know you my Lord
To know you more.

Moving on... with my Lord...

Speaking of moving on... and since i believe some may be sick of hearing me saying how SBS loves to scam its commuters, I shall now move on to something different.

And its no other than its "partner-in-crime": SMRT !! aka Singapore Mass Rapid Transit. Or aka "Silencing Mediator for Retinoic acid and Thyroid hormone receptor" which involves in Thyriod hormone receptor-mediated repression. Ok, ignore the latter.

Anyway...

"Operating profit rose 260.8 per cent to S$37.6 million. Excluding the change in the estimated useful life for selected bus models, severance payment in 2Q FY2006, the write-back of retirement benefits provision and impairment loss on goodwill in 2Q FY2005, operating profit for 2Q FY2006 would have been S$35.8 million, an increase of 17.8 per cent."
- http://www.smrt.com.sg/pressrele_main.htm

The board of directors may be going something like: "Wah Lao!! NB! 35 million profit nia! I'm struggling to pay for my 6th bunglow here and my Private ski resort at Switzerland leh! I think next year must raise fares again... heehee..."

*All directors nod heads in unison.

*evil grins.

ok i mean seriously, when will they stop with their frequent fare hikes?? Why must they Always keep citing "Raise in oil prices" as one of the main reasons? Or is it just an excuse (aka opportunity) for u guys to raise fares?and also, im not the onli one in sg who has such sentiments... grr... sbs and smrt duopoly-ing the transport system... grr...

Okok... move on move on... lol...

Enjoy life guys... =) we only live here once... Blessed night!

"You are and will always be my best friend... my Godsent.
I will always remember... always cherish,
all the times we have spent.
You are the one I love... the one I care.
I want to take care of you... to be there for you,
and this would be my prayer."